When you feel a strong intuitive call, do you answer?
A few months ago, over the course of several weeks, I felt this extremely persistent message that I was supposed to be traveling the country. I knew it wasn't meant to be a vacation. I knew it was Spirit calling me and I knew that it had something to do with my soul's growth and purpose. When it's Spirit calling, how can I help but say yes?
What was I supposed to do on this journey? (I knew it wasn't a trip; it was a journey. There is a profound difference.) I decided I would be communing with nature, visiting sacred sites, offering prayers at "the wounded places," and writing about the experience. I knew it my heart this would be a sacred journey. I began to realize it would be a pilgrimage.
At first I was fantasizing about motor homes or pick-up trucks towing a tiny house. But as the last day of work approached and I realized I wouldn't have enough money for these more luxurious items, I started purchasing camping equipment. The important thing was to go. The important thing was to start. I needed to show Spirit that I was willing to answer the call, no matter what.
On August 22, 2018, I began this journey. It is already so much more profound than I expected. There is a definitely a strong inner component to the outer journey. And the inner journey is very rich. (To get a brief glimpse, read https://www.cynthiagreb.com/the-peace-and-power-of-pilgrimage/ ) I will be posting updates on Facebook on a regular basis.
As I travel, the reasons for this journey continue to unfold. One of the more important things I am being called to do is offer a lot of prayer. I have become very sensitive to the many areas on this continent where there have been massacres of native people. It feels very important to me that those of us with white skin acknowledge these specific atrocities and offer heartfelt prayers for the spirits of those who were killed and the hearts of those who remain. We all suffer from these unhealed wounds of pain, anger, and grief; as well as guilt and shame.
Most of us have heard of Wounded Knee due to Dee Brown's seminal book, but very few of us have ever heard of the huge massacres of the Tolowa people near Crescent City, CA or the Cheyenne and Arapaho at Sand Creek, Colorado or the Tompiro in the Sandia Mountains, NM or the Pequot in Mystic, Connecticut. All of these massacres resulted in even more deaths than those at Wounded Knee. And yet, most of us were never taught this! The land holds the energy of the suffering, and those descendants who live on hold the heaviness in their hearts.
Occasionally I will stumble upon other things that trigger the empathic part of me, like piles and piles and piles of trees at lumber yards, or tiny "calf houses"/"veal" houses at a dairy farm . (The day I saw those little white shelters at the dairy farm was a very, very difficult day. Fortunately there were no calves inside them at the time. I returned to offer prayers nearby the following day. I prayed for the calves and the cows and a change of heart among the farmers. I prayed long. I will be writing about this in more depth, too, you can be sure.)
After "heavy" experiences, I am learning I need to restore my spirit in a place of sublime beauty or power. I think this is something we all have to learn to allow space for. This is a really challenging time on the planet. We have to care for that sensitive part of ourselves which suffers from it all.
The itinerary below reflects both the path already traveled and the path yet to unfold. It is subject to change depending on resources, weather, and guidance.
NEW ITINERARY for the First Few Months (updated 10/1/18)
- Powerful Castle Crags and sacred Mt. Shasta, CA
- North to Ashland, Oregon
- West on Rte. 96 along the Klamath River, through Happy Camp and Orleans (home to Native people and purported home of Bigfoot)
- The redwoods at Humbolt and Del Norte Counties, CA
- Crescent City, CA -- Jedediah Smith Redwood Park and site of Tolowa massacre (prayer ceremony)
- North to Bandon, OR (prayer ceremony)
- North along the western coast, stopping at various places to commune with the ocean
- Sand Dunes of Oregon
- East to Christmas Valley, OR
- Northeast to Montana --Polson; Flathead Reservation of the Salish, Kootenai, and Pend d'Oreilles.
UPDATE 10/23/18 SECOND LEG OF PILGRIMAGE! (Tentative schedule.)
- Leave Arlee, MT directly after voting on Nov. 6!
- Billings, MT
- Boulder, CO
- Santa Fe, NM (Speaking at The Celebration, Nov. 11, 10:30 a.m.)
- Prayers at Sandia Mountains, place of massacre of the Tompiro
- Chimayo, NM (a place of healing)
- Taos, NM
- Crestone, CO (my old home!)
- Prayers at the site of the Sand Creek Massacre, southeast Colorado
- Colorado Springs, CO
- Kindness Ranch Animal Sanctuary, Hartville, WY (sharing love!)
- Bear Lodge/Devil's Tower, Wyoming (retreat)
Clicking into my website is a great way to keep in touch with my journey. I will also make posts on Facebook every three days or so.
For most of October, I have been staying in the northwestern section of Montana, south of beautiful Flathead Lake. I have been really blessed to get to know both wonderful, intuitive non-native women and men and, gradually, members of the local tribal tribal people as well, including one elder who is an incredibly talented singer/songwriter. It is such a blessing to begin to feel embraced in a new community. The fact that I already feel so loved and welcomed is a testament both to Montana's people and to the spirits who have called me here.
UPDATE 11/8/2018 I am leaving Montana this morning in order to arrive in Santa Fe on 11/10. I am now being guided to go the western route, down through Idaho and Utah before turning east in Colorado and heading south to Santa Fe. This is a faster route with fewer miles. With monetary factors as they are, it seemed to make the most sense. I absolutely intend to do as much of the above itinerary as possible, but it will happen after 11/11, not before. Over and over I am being asked to take this day by day, not knowing the future. It has been quite the challenge for me!!! I have to continually practice exercising my faith muscles!
UPDATE 11/9/2018 Yesterday I woke up to snowy and slippery roads and my departure was delayed for several hours. After I finally surrendered, affirming repeatedly "I trust in You, I trust in You, I trust in You," I came to peace about it all. The drive was beautiful and I practiced my talk along the way--a great way to pass the time! Without going into details now, I had trouble finding a viable place to sleep. Finally did about midnight, slept hard, and am ready for my next day.
Meanwhile, I am looking forward to being in my heart homes of New Mexico and Colorado, after which I hope to return to beautiful Montana. We will see what unfolds! Who knows what magic and mystery awaits!
UPDATE 11/22/2018 Well, folks, yet another change in plans. It looks like I'll be settling in Santa Fe for a few months. In spite of generous donations, I didn't have quite enough resources to get back to Montana--especially with it being too cold to camp. And that's okay because New Mexico is a wonderful place to stay for the winter. My dear friend, Karen, who is extremely intuitive, spiritually devoted, and psychically gifted, will be accompanying me to the Sandia Mountains and Sand Creek to offer prayers and ceremony at the sites of massacres. There are also opportunities for prayers, healing, and action regarding detention centers to the south where our global sisters and brothers are suffering. Also, as in Montana, there are opportunities for healing and connection with native neighbors as well as Hispanic folks. It's such a wonderfully diverse area culturally. It's one of the many things I love about New Mexico.
Since my talk on 11/11 I have been focused on finding work and completing my book, Grief and Grace. I hope to have it published by December 1st. Prayer support is most welcome! (The Spiritual Nomad book is coming along. I realized I have so much I am eager to share, but I don't want to rush this book. It feels too important and I want to be proud of it when it is completed. I will continue to work on it in December. And after Grief and Grace is birthed, I hope to post a few more blogs as well.)
I don't yet know all the reasons I am being asked to stay here in Santa Fe a while, but I trust that it is all for a higher purpose. (And I still want to return to Montana at some point. I felt a real heart-spirit connection there. )
The journey continues. One step at a time. One day at a time.
Meanwhile I am sending out ENORMOUS gratitude to those who have donated money to keep me going. I, quite literally, could not have done this journey to New Mexico without you. From the depths of my heart, I thank you for your kindness and for your support of this mission. May we each offer our lives as living prayers to this beautiful planet and all her inhabitants.
Big bountiful blessings to you as we each work in our way to create a better world.